Wednesday, January 22, 2014


Ouchhh. When I have to study. So irritating.
Danger detected. Do not come closer or else, you will be eaten. 


Thursday, January 16, 2014

Permanent Personality

Assalamualaikum w.b.t
Peace be upon you :) 

Alhamdulillah, I had done my best for yesterday's psychiatric exam. One down and two more to go. Well right now, it is 2 am in the morning and I'm still stuck at my desk, preparing for my next pediatric exam. Sangat mencabar. Why? Because this exam will be fully in russian language. Hmm usaha lah syeera, selagi mana boleh. =.=

Lagipun Allah janji, man jadda wa jada, kan? :') 


A conversation while studying psychiatric few days ago : 

S : Taw tak bila child start to develop their personality?
E : Geleng geleng tak tahu. Bila?
S : 5 tahun, and by the age of 20-23, they will have their permanent personality. 
E : Ohhh really?
S : Yesss.
E : Hmm how old are we now?
S : Twenty-two.

Pandang satu sama lain, masing-masing tersengih tanda memahami apa yang tersirat di hati.
*Mungkin ini boleh dijadikan alasan untuk orang terima baik buruk perangai kita hikhik

Such an interesting fact I learnt from psychiatric. 
Hence, dear friends and 'ehem future husband,' please accept our flaws, because perangai kami dah tak boleh nak ubah. Its permanent already yo. *peaceeee*


Selamat solat subuh, warga Malaysia. 
Kepada warga Volgo, selamat study sampai lebam. 
Time to sleep, maybe? 


Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Battle is on


Oh Allah,
Please expand our chest,
make easy tasks for us,
and remove impediment from our speech.
So that the examiners understand what we are saying.
Amin ya rabbanal alamin. 

dup dap dup dap dup dap

The battle is now on. Good luck batchmates! 
May the best be ours. 



Saturday, January 11, 2014


Assalamualaikum w.b.t
Peace be upon you :) 

Raining on a winter day is so not Russia. The temperature had risen back to positive. No more snow falling from the sky, no more whitish road and the alleys are now coated back in their tar-color. I always wonder, where does the white goes when the snow melts?


I was scrolling my 'ef bee' home few nights ago and I was attracted with this :

Be grateful for every single person who was part of your story. 
The ones who hurt you, the ones who helped you. 
The ones who came, and the ones who left. 
They all taught you. Never think that it was random. 
It was just some perfectly crafted chapters in each unique journey

Well, what I can say is that each and every single thing that happened in our life has its own reason. Sooner or later, we will see their silver linings. Every time when I think of my past, I felt like slapping my own face. 
 * Huh serious? Okay fine, too hyperbolic. I will never slap my own face haha
But to be positive, takkan ada manusia berdosa yang tidak punya masa depan, dan takkan ada manusia sempurna yang tidak punya masa silam. I always have my mind set on that. So people, lets forgive each other and forget the past, for holding grudge is so not cool okay? :)


Hoi makcik syeera, hang takdak kheja ka? hang patut doq study ceq oiiii. Hang tak bukak insta, hang tak bukak efff beee, tapi hang tulis blog. Pasaipa syeera pasaipaaaaaaaa?? Ok ok. Studying now. Tata peeps!

Ps : Pray for our upcoming winter exams ok? Biar semua cemerlang dan terbilang. Amin.^^


Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Unusual New Year

Assalamualaikum w.b.t
Peace be upon you  :)

I am pretty sure everyone knows about what happened in Volgograd, 2 days before 2013 ends. Tragic, is what I can say. I always have this kind of thought, in which Volgograd is a safe country, far far away from any risk of bombings and blast. But it turned out to be not as what I think. 

Well true, nothing is impossible from Allah's side. 

Kun faya kun.
Bila Allah cakap jadi, maka jadilah. 

As a person with sense of humanity, I am deeply sad for what had happened. Dozens of innocent native were killed. I can clearly imagine the typical morning situation on the bomb-targeted trolleybus, as I always used that bus to go to the hospital. Every morning will be a hectic morning on the bus, where mum carries her little baby, where grandmother carries her heavy plastic bag full with vegetables, where children carries their schoolbag sleeping on their way to school. Those innocent people were killed. Their family hearts were broken into pieces and honestly mine were broken too.

It was really a terrifying incident. Volgograd, where I spent three quarter of my year since the past 5 years, had turned gloomy within a flash of light. It is where I struggled to repair my relationship with my Rabb, where I learnt about relationship with human, where I learnt to distinguish right from wrong and where I changed from daddy's dependent girl into an independent one. Hence, what happened in Volgograd had terribly scratched my heart too.

Due to the disaster, the Russia government had announced that the first 3 days of 2014 will be the days of mourning. Therefore, there will be no new year celebration. The air is sorrow. Streets are empty. People are melancholic. And here I am, sitting in front of my laptop, looking through out the window, still hoping for any sparkles of new year fireworks, while praying that tomorrow will be a peaceful one.

Hasbunallah wa ni'maal wakeel
Cukuplah Allah menjadi penolong kami, dan Dialah sebaik-baik pelindung. 

Happy 2014 everyone :)